Just a rough mess of some thoughts that I feel are significant.
(It feels repetitive because it's hard for me to write down the thoughts in my head so I just keep writing until I feel like I've gotten the main idea out, and then I just leave it alone because I'm scared I'll take something important away from it. So yeah.)
I've been struggling lately with the idea that everyone is so distant and base their own opinions on other people's opinions and we forget to remember that we're all different, and that we're not meant to fit into someone else's mold.
We should embrace our differences. Not fear them.
I don't know. Again, just some raw thoughts.
Lately, I've been thinking about how closed off the world is.
This song is a major influence, if you don't like harder music, skip to 1:34, but the imagery in the beginning is a big part of the meaning behind the song.
The words are an excerpt from the film "The Network" made in 1976. I've been meaning to watch the whole thing, but I haven't gotten around to it yet.
We keep to ourselves; we are afraid of change.
We're scared of new interactions, new beginnings, new situations.
We just want to be left alone
and we want everyone else to mind their own business.
People need other people.
We aren't made to be alone.
We have consciousness, we have feelings, emotions.
It's like another language but we're all afraid to speak it.
We love, we get hurt.
And we hate that.
So we shut out anything that could ever hurt us.
We forget how to feel.
We forget how to love anything but ourselves.
We sit in our houses, watching the world burn,
With empty faces,
and hollow, calloused minds.
We just recycle the same emotions, the same reactions.
Our feelings are synthetic.
Our reactions are not real.
Just a mindless, scripted play.
We're told how to feel or not feel, how to react or not react.
We put up walls to feel safe because we're so afraid of being hurt.
And then wonder why we feel so alone.
Happiness does not exist without sadness.
You can't always have the sun and expect not to burn.
Good can't exist without bad.
We can't expect things to stay the same forever.
And we shouldn't.
Time is a part of us.
We are made to change.
We are made to feel and to react.
We are made to experience new things,
good or bad.
To react in our own way,
not how we're told to.
We are made to be unique,
not just copies of what we're told is "ideal"
We are not made to be "perfect".
Perfection does not exist.
We are a terribly flawed mess.
A beautiful chaos.
People need other people.
We aren't meant to be alone.
We aren't meant to stay the same.
We're not meant to be the same.
We aren't meant to feel the same.
We're all different.
We all come into this world broken.
But together we are whole.
We are made to love each other.
We are meant to "feel" each other.
we're all just mindless creatures
struggling to survive.
we are not connected.
we are all alone.
Alone, we are nothing.