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Literature
Art:
Art is a physical representation
       of a part of you that is deeper
       than words could ever describe


   Art translates the language
                 o f
               t  h  e
           s    o    u    l
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Literature
Darkness
Oppressive
              Darkness;
                            Looming

Like an elusive shadow
Creeping upon you;
Like a quiet shiver up your spine
Engulfing
            Darkness;
                         Ominous

Like that dreaded truth
Or that moment of stillness
Between the white-hot flashes
And roaring thunder crashes
Your blood runs cold with fear
Your skin, as pale as death
I      a   m
T  h  e     D  a  r  k  n  e  s  s
W    i    t    h    i    n         y    o    u  
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Literature
Truths
I wish there were
Such things as
Unbiased Truths
about
                             
                       Life and Love
                                                           &
                                                                      Good and Evil

'Truth' is all relative
                               To your own
                               
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Literature
Untitled
Just let me
Fall apart
I want to
Make something
Beautiful                          
With all of the  
Broken pieces.
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Literature
A Moment
She was always looking
For something
Profound

Something that made
The time
            Just stop
One moment to forget the
Past, just
            For one moment
One moment to feel whole
Again and
            Just breathe
One moment to forget
What she could
            Never
Forget before-- What she thought
She could never
            Forget
Until now. Everything is fading away
Just remember
            How to
                           (Breathe)
Her eyes close, she hears only
One word:
            "Love."
She was always looking
For something
Profound
One moment as grand and solemn as
An entire
Lifetime
One single moment of clarity.
And then it's
Just gon
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Literature
End
circling shadows
flickering around and around
it's all spiraling down
toward this collapse
toward this new ending
the darkness is closing in
imminence.
certainty.
you know how this will end
then why are you still standing here?
you know you can't make time stand still
but maybe if you stay here, you won't
have to know what comes next.
this is how the story ends
with you gone and i'm still here
trying to stand on my own two feet
but the floor swallowed them whole last week
it's been eating me away for days
and the walls have been beating my body to a pulp
circling shadows
flickering around and around
it's all spiraling down
toward this collapse
toward this new ending.
you knew this is how it all would end
then why did you do it?
you are a fool.
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Literature
Song in My Heart
I have a song in my heart
It speaks the words I cannot utter
It lets me feel the things I can't even begin to feel
Like being in love,
Or being complete,
And not just broken.
I have a song in my heart
Let me play it,
Let me sing it,
Let me dance to it for you
But your eyes are blind;
Stone cold stare.
Your ears are deaf.
Your skin is hardened by past hurts.
Like a toughened leather,
Beaten down and burned in the hot sun
For days and days on end.
We both are broken.
Maybe together we can be even a little more whole.
I have this song in my heart.
It is about you.
It speaks the words my mouth could never utter.
It feels the things my heart
Could never feel.
Like being in love,
Or in a dream,
Or being complete,
And not just broken.
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Literature
Pensive
It's all so relative
This distant collapse
Renew and relapse
Take it all in
Begin again
Breathe in this sweet destruction
This loneliness is unending
And you're so condemning
Just smiles pretending
Give in and decay
This feeling's irrelevant
To reach is a swift descent
Try to deny this;
The feeling of emptiness
All that's left is an absence
I dare you, try to deny it
The taste of your lips
Doesn't destroy this
Your mind is an open book
With words set between the lines
So tell me, just tell me
What are you trying to hide?
Why are you so pensive?
What was the incentive?
Your mind is an open book
With words set between the lines
So tell me, just tell me
What's there to fucking hide?
Your mouth is a trap; your lips are the treat
Your eyes hold back secrets you've been keeping from me
Don't make yourself comfortable,
This isn't how it's supposed to be
Don't try me, don't test my patience
I'm dying to understand this
(Feeling of your resistance)
Don't try me, don't test my patience
Stop cryi
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Literature
Droplet
You fall from the sky.
So perfect, so beautiful.
Shining, reflecting, casting glimmers of light.
You reach the surface.
Make contact.
You shatter.
Trickle down.
Sink in.
Dissolve.
Evaporate.
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Literature
So This Is How It Feels
So this is how it feels.
Burn me down in flames. Leave me here in ashes.
Dressed in decay. Wrapped in fire.
Your kiss like flint and tinder,
Igniting a spark, lighting a fire in my heart.
I didn't think it would come to this.
I didn't think it would hurt this much.
I didn't think it would reach so far.
I swear, I'm about to combust.
My insides writhing and charred.
It's so beautiful...
Like trees in autumn, when their leaves turn into fire,
They blow in the wind to find their final resting place.
They turn to into ash, turn to dust.
Sink into the earth.
So this is how it feels.
Burn me down in flames, leave me in ashes.
I wanted this.
I needed this.
That flint-and-tinder kiss.
Ignite the spark.
Light the fire.
Turn me into dust.
Let me sink into you.
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Literature
I Don't Want to Think About It
I don't want to just think you'll be there after the sky goes dark
I want to know;
I want to taste and touch and
Feel
The warmth of your breath,
The smell of your skin,
The taste of your lips,
And that flutter-feeling I get when
I look in your eyes.
I don't want to just think you'll be there after the sun goes down, the sky goes dim, and the
Lights go out.
I don't want to think,
I want to know.
All these fleeting moments and
I don't want to feel alone anymore.
Please, don't leave me here wondering if this is real or not.
Don't leave me here trying to figure out if this was all a dream...
Like it always was before.
I don't want to think,
I want to-- (know)
No, I don't want to think about it anymore.
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Literature
The truth is...
The truth is
I don't want to be stuck here
Alone
I don't want to be kept here
By any means
I want to leave this place
I want to be free
I just can't find my wings
And it's such a long road
Just give me a reason to keep going
Because I can't think of any
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Literature
Out
It's a long and lonely road, they all say
Well, I'm lost in my own mind
I've been down every lonely road there is
I've been down every fucking road
I've been going through the motions
I've been going with the flow
I keep falling into the same stupid patterns
And now I'm left with nowhere to go
I have nowhere to run
I have no hands to guide me
No hands to guide me home
No feet to lead me
To that sanctuary
I've been down every lonely road there is
I've been down every fucking road
I know where each one leads to
I know where each one fucking goes
There is no answer here
There is no answer there
There is no escape
From this crippling fear
Deep inside
There's a pain that doesn't leave
There's a fear that holds you still
There's a madness in my mind
And it's staying far too near
MY HEAD JUST SPINS IN CIRCLES, IT SPINS
IN THE SAME STUPID CIRCLES
I DONT KNOW
HOW MUCH
LONGER I CAN TAKE IT
CAN SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF HERE
CAN ANYBODY HEAR ME
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Literature
Canvas
so tell me how to feel
because i really don't know anymore
tell me love is real
because i can't feel it anymore
lie to me
i don't believe anything anymore
if i can't trust myself,
who can i?
the answer isn't here [with me]
the answer is not there [with you]
i don't know what to believe anymore
i don't know how to love anymore
i don't feel anything anymore
i am empty
i am numb
contrast and compare,
it won't do any good
you'll just be left feeling
more empty and worthless
judge me
it won't make this any worse
try to fix the problem,
it will just tear apart somewhere else
all that's left are heartstrings
on this picture we painted
all that's left to sever are heartstrings
this is the final blow
this will hurt most
don't look down
the floor is caving in
don't look down
it's crumbling beneath our feet
don't you dare look down
oh god, everything is void
this canvas is shredded
this canvas is shredded
there's no putting it back together
this canvas is shredded
there's no picking up the pieces
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Literature
The Cellar
There is an unwelcome feeling here.
The kind that shakes you; makes you want to scream, run away, makes you frantic, overwhelmes you with panic and wraps you in paralyizing fear. A heaviness. A certain foreboding weight in the air
Not like the pressure you can feel when it's about to rain,
More like the tenseness or the charge in it when the sky turns that ugly green/grey shade of black, right before you see the funnel start to spin. The sky flashes sharp bright white. Then the lights flicker and go out. Then you hear the sirens. And all you can think is, 'Go find a safe place. GO FIND SHELTER. YOU ARE NOT SAFE HERE.'
Then you take a breath...
The thunder is rolling all around you. The earth seems to shake. Or maybe it is fear shaking you? You sit on the cement floor against the cold brick wall in your cellar. You hope this is only a nightmare. And you hope you wake up soon.
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Literature
Holder of My Heart
Counting them down:
One more day,
One more hour,
One last moment until I can finally
Fall asleep.
Anything to numb the pain of knowing you're not here;
That you're gone.
And waste away the days until I can gaze into your eyes once more,
Those eyes that pierce straight to my core,
And help me feel alive again.
The eyes that tell me there's more to life that this.
A few more moments to kill until I can bury myself in your arms once again
So I don't have to feel like I'm constantly falling apart,
Because I'm tired of picking up the pieces.
You chase away all of the pain and fear that keeps me here.
You give me hope, and purpose;
That I have something to live for;
Someone to hold; someone to love.
I know I'm far from perfect,
And I could never understand why you always come back to me.
And I'm learning that even though times get hard,
It's oh, so worth it.
And that without you, nothing makes sense anymore.
The world doesn't seem quite as bright without you in it.
Nothing seems right withou
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nobody mentions the graveyards.
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And catch the falling droplets for my collection.
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Of love,
Of me.
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Strong is the peace that engulfs me,
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Caressing me like a lover.
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Chaos,
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but when?
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Just a rough mess of some thoughts that I feel are significant.
(It feels repetitive because it's hard for me to write down the thoughts in my head so I just keep writing until I feel like I've gotten the main idea out, and then I just leave it alone because I'm scared I'll take something important away from it. So yeah.)
I've been struggling lately with the idea that everyone is so distant and base their own opinions on other people's opinions and we forget to remember that we're all different, and that we're not meant to fit into someone else's mold.
We should embrace our differences. Not fear them.
I don't know. Again, just some raw thoughts.

This song is a major influence, if you don't like harder music, skip to 1:34, but the imagery in the beginning is a big part of the meaning behind the song. 
www.youtube.com/watch?v=a1nrtR…
The words are an excerpt from the film "The Network" made in 1976. I've been meaning to watch the whole thing, but I haven't gotten around to it yet.



Lately, I've been thinking about how closed off the world is.
We keep to ourselves; we are afraid of change.
We're scared of new interactions, new beginnings, new situations.
We just want to be left alone
and we want everyone else to mind their own business.
People need other people.
We aren't made to be alone.
We have consciousness, we have feelings, emotions.
It's like another language but we're all afraid to speak it.
We love, we get hurt.
And we hate that.
So we shut out anything that could ever hurt us.
We forget how to feel.
We forget how to love anything but ourselves.
We sit in our houses, watching the world burn,
With empty faces,
and hollow, calloused minds.
We just recycle the same emotions, the same reactions.
Our feelings are synthetic.
Our reactions are not real.
Just a mindless, scripted play.
We're brainwashed.
We're told how to feel or not feel, how to react or not react.
We put up walls to feel safe because we're so afraid of being hurt.
And then wonder why we feel so alone.
Happiness does not exist without sadness.
You can't always have the sun and expect not to burn.
Good can't exist without bad.
We can't expect things to stay the same forever.
And we shouldn't.
Time is a part of us.
We are made to change.
We are made to feel and to react.
We are made to experience new things,
good or bad.
To react in our own way,
not how we're told to.
We are made to be unique,
not just copies of what we're told is "ideal"
We are not made to be "perfect".
Perfection does not exist.
We are a terribly flawed mess.
A beautiful chaos.
People need other people.
We aren't meant to be alone.
We aren't meant to stay the same.
We're not meant to be the same.
We aren't meant to feel the same.
We're all different.
We all come into this world broken.
But together we are whole.
We are made to love each other.
We are meant to "feel" each other.
Without emotion,
we're all just mindless creatures
struggling to survive.
Without emotion,
we are not connected.
Without emotion,
we are all alone.
Alone, we are nothing.
  • Listening to: Nate playing Smite.
  • Reading: Game of Thrones
  • Watching: World of Tomorrow (2015)
  • Drinking: Water

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thank you very much for the favourite :huggle:
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Thank you for the favorite! :]
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Hey! I found ya. Come check me out when you can. :)
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Thank you for adding to your favourites "Falling down" ^.^
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Thank you so much for adding Sunset at South China Sea III [link] to your :+fav:'s... ;)
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Hey, really BIG THANKS for the :+fav:
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Thank you for faving "A Splash of Color." :D

I really appreciate it. :aww:
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heya, remember me? how have you been?
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schamelon Featured By Owner Aug 4, 2011  Hobbyist Writer
hmm, i'm not sure if i do, but i'm alright, just living i guess haha. and yourself?
and thanks for the favourite on "sink or swim" :aww: i really appreciate it!
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ummm i mostly did a load of fairling depressing poetry
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